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4/29/2008
She came!! She came!! AF (Aunt Flow) is here! I was jumping with excitment last night!! So I am going to start checking my temps every morning and check my CF everyday. Hopefully my body isnt that wacked. It did take 30 days from the first day of my miscarriage. I know my body is telling me I am ready but I am not sure if I am emotionally ready. I decided to get help. I am going to start going to a support group every month. At least I am going to give it a try. I was going to talk to someone but Jeff doesnt want me to. He wants me to talk with him. So I told him somethings that he needed to do to help me. I've decided not to get on the pregnancy loss board anymore. All it was doing was making me think the negative stuff. There are 2nd and 3 rd losses every week. There are women who lost at 16 weeks, 32 weeks and so forth. And now I am scared out of my mind. So I am no longer allowed on that site. I have to think positive. POSITIVE!!! I was just going backwards I think and not forward. By the way I found this site: http://www.christendom-awake.org/pages/may/hopeforhealing.htmThis site is for Hope for Healing: Miscarriage and the Dignity of the Human BodyHere are some of my favorite quotes by the Pope: (IN NO ORDER)Motherhood is the fruit of the marriage union of a man and woman, of that biblical “knowledge” which corresponds to the “union of the two in one flesh” (cf. Gen 2:24). This brings about - on the woman’s part - a special “gift of self”, as an expression of that spousal love whereby the two are united to each other so closely that they become “one flesh”…. This mutual gift of the person in marriage opens to the gift of a new life, a new human being, who is also a person in the likeness of his parents. Motherhood implies from the beginning a special openness to the new person: and this is precisely the woman’s “part”. In this openness, in conceiving and giving birth to a child, the woman “discovers herself through a sincere gift of self”. The gift of interior readiness to accept the child and bring it into the world is linked to the marriage union, which - as mentioned earlier - should constitute a special moment in the mutual self-giving both by the woman and the man. According to the Bible, the conception and birth of a new human being are accompanied by the following words of the woman: “I have brought a man into being with the help of the Lord” (Gen 4:1)Motherhood involves a special communion with the mystery of life, as it develops in the woman’s womb. The mother is filled with wonder at this mystery of life, and “understands” with unique intuition what is happening inside her. In the light of the “beginning”, the mother accepts and loves as a person the child she is carrying in her womb (John Paul II, 1988, p. 66). Parenthood - even though it belongs to both - is realized much more fully in the woman, especially in the prenatal period. It is the woman who “pays” directly for this shared generation, which literally absorbs the energies of her body and soul. It is therefore necessary that the man be fully aware that in their shared parenthood he owes a special debt to the woman. These include loss of being pregnant and of the sense of oneness with the fetus, loss of anticipated motherhood, loss of special attention and care frequently accorded a pregnant woman, and loss of prenatal medical care. In addition, there is a crucial loss of self-esteem resulting from the woman’s inability to rely on her body and successfully give birth (Kay et al., 1997), p. 11).