38 weeks

So.. no progress.... Still 1 cm and 50% effaced. She couldnt strip my membranes. Whatever.. Isabella!! So next step is to see her next Tuesday for my 39 week appt. We have an ultrasound scheduled to see how big she is. And then we see the Dr afterwards. If I have progress even a little, we will then schedule an induction date for that week. But if I have NOT progress, she will NOT induce me. Ask why? Because she doesnt want me to be in more pain than I really need to be. I really dont understand it all but whatever the dr says. Now.. when it comes 40 weeks then we will have to induce me no matter what. But for right now ... this is what I got.

and it continues.....

I think I broke my toe. Its swollen, black&blue, and hard to walk on. I did this on Thursday morning.

And then today....................................I think I am getting a UTI. I'll have to get that checked out on Tuesday.

sigh....

Sigh

New symptom.... rash on belly that itches. Sigh... can I get some relief soon?? I hate being pregnant! I really do!!

2nd Internal

I am now 1 cm dilated and still 50% effaced. She did some stretching/massaging and now I am all crampy. I am so happy to be working from home because I am just miserable. Next week if I am 2 cm, she will strip my membranes and she said I should have her within 24 hours if she is ready. If she is not ready then nothing will happen. So... lets hope next week, we will have a baby in our arms. I am still terrified about the how experience of giving birth but what can I do. I am just so unhappy that I dont care anymore. A couple of people have mentioned that once I am in labor, I will say... what was I thinking. I know exacting what I was thinking......... I want my body back and lets get to recovery.

1st internal

50 % effaced. 1 cm on the outside and 0 cm on the inside.

2008

Lets start with January: Jeff and I bought a new house. We are so happy with the house and the area. We are planning on living there for a very long time. Its basically our dream house. Ask us if we would do it again?? Nope. We will never have 2 mortgages again. Lets just say it was really stressful and thank God for our tenants.
February.... I found out I was pregnant for the first time. And then in April I had a miscarriage. Like I said before, it still effects me. Nobody warned me that you dont see Marly and Me if your pregnant. I can understand why if your pregnant for the first time. All it did was bring back the memory of my miscarriage. Sorry if I ruined the movie for ya. I cried my eyes out when they found out. Jeff grabbed my hand, like a good husband and we just looked at each other. How they told them was basically the same way they told us.
In May, we found out that I was pregnant again. There wasnt as much excitement as before. When we first found out we were pregnant, I wrapped a gift and video taped Jeff's reaction. The second time I found out, I called Jeff on the phone and said " yah... I think were pregnant again". I wasn't positive because you can still have positive tests after a miscarriage. So.. with caution we went to the dr and found out that it was true.
In May, we had the birth of Emma Grace and Samatha Kay. What a celebration! They both were healthy and beautiful.
In September, we found out we were having a baby girl. We named her Isabella Faith.
In October, we had the anniversary of Tommy Wilson. I cant believe he passed away 1 year ago from cancer.
There was also a date nobody remembered but me..... October 24, 2008. We would've had a baby born that day. I thought about him or her that day. There is a lady at church who had the same due date as I. Everytime I look at her baby today, I cant help but wonder about our first angel and if she/he would be that weight. I would be holding a baby right now. But then again, once Isabella is born, I know I will have to face my thoughts about if I didnt have a miscarriage, I wouldnt have her, right? I know its what God planned for us but I still find it hard somedays. 2008 had some up's and down's but in the end it was a good year.