13 weeks and counting

So.. I made it!! Here I am in 2nd trimester. It went so fast!!! It kinda scares me though.. because before we know it, we will hopefully have a baby in our arms. I've attached my 12 week ultrasound. Let me explain the pictures starting from the top:
1. Profile of face
2. Legs stretched out
3. Legs are crossed
4. You can see the eye socket- kinda freaky
5. Baby waving hi
6. Measurements - Perfect

As for symptoms, I am still tired and sleeping alot. I still have alot of lower back pain. And right now my belly has been itching since last night. And of course I am emotional.

Update on our 2nd house: It sucks!!! We cant sell it, lease it or rent it for the life of us!!!

12 week Appt

Our appt went great, awesome, terrific, blown away!! They did another ultrasound and we got so many good shots of the baby. One: with legs spread out, Two: Looking straight up, Three: Face shot with showing an eye shocket, Four: with their legs crossing over, Five: Baby waving his hand, Six: Measurements, which he/she is growing on target. Baby was moving alot!!!! It was really neat to see him/her moving around. We also got to hear the heart beat too. It was between 158-160.
My blood pressure is awesome and I only gain 2 lbs. So that makes a total of 3 lbs for 1st trimester. Funny thing is I have been eating out everyday and I eat Oreos just about every night. Maybe I gained all the weight I needed with my first. Dont forget my lovely 10lbs. I never weight myself at home anymore. I just go by what the dr says. I was for sure thinking I gained 5lb since I feel and look bigger.
Then after Jeff and I had dinner tonight, we pulled out our doppler and finally found the heart beat as well. This time registering at 148-152. We videotaped it!!! I finally feel as though I can breathe and enjoy my pregnancy. No more worries and if so, I can always pull out the doppler. I am truly happy and blessed!

This weekend

This weekend we finally decided to go to church! Ive been wanting to go for a long time but Jeff said we had too many projects to do around the house. Since we've been stressed and stressed about our house and among other things, we thought that church would be good. We always feel better. Well we decided to go to Lifepoint Church. It was great. I think it was kinda meant to be. I been thinking about a couple of things and I guess my questions got answered. We had a couple of people introduce themselves to us. One of them live in our neighborhood. =) They have a 3 year old and one on the way. Weird thing though her due date is Oct 25th. I almost freaked out when he told us. Lucky me she wasnt there when he told me. But as soon as we met, first thing I wanted to do was to look at her belly to see how far long I would've been. I kept staring at her belly. I couldnt help it. I was so happy to blessed with this child yet I had to go back and remember my other child. I felt kinda bad afterwards. Why out of all the churches we talked about that morning, we found one that had a pregnant women that was due around my old due date??? WHY???

12 weeks today

So I am 12 weeks today. Symptoms are sciatica for sure, tired and my boobs hurt a little but thats about it. The sciatica has been a real problem for me. I hate sitting on my ass. Seriously it hurts. I am really sore in my back and butt. I would die for one a massage right now. I cleaned the house yesterday. Only thing differently I did was mop the floors and bring some empty boxes up from the basement. I took frequent breaks because I was tired but by the end of the day... my BACK was killing me. I didnt even want to get up. I guess I did too much. About 7-8 years ago I injured my back, my lumbar. I did everything the dr's asked me to do and it never healed. Then I went to a massage therapist and she healed me. I went every couple of days to once a week and then once a month. I was able to go back to work after just a few sessions but my point was.. I am wondering if my lumbar is acting up? It my right side that hurts more than anything. I am thinking I will be needing lots of massages during this pregnancy. Tuesday is my 12 week appt. So wish us good luck!! Hopefully we will be in the clear here soon.

I could cry... wait.. I have....

So I got my hair colored today. I decided not to go back to my natural but to do an all over color. So I asked for Golden Brown and I got BLACK. Well its a chocolate DARK brown. Everyone at work loves it and of course I hate it. I cried!! Now I feel just fat and ugly.

Jeff's cousin had an Ectopic Pregnancy and had either her left or right side tube taken out. My first instinct is to send a card out for their loss. Then I thought wait... did I even receive a card for our loss? NO!!! Of course I got upset and mad.. DAMN those hormones and then realized that I guess I will be the better one in this situation even though I could cry that they didnt acknowledge our loss. Sigh......

11 weeks

Ive made it to 11 weeks and I cant believe it. There is no hiding this baby anymore. Neighbors are asking or figuring it out. You should see my belly after I eat. I look like I am 20 weeks in some people but I'm of course short and petite so I dont think this baby has a choice but to show. It worries me on what I will look like at 20 weeks. I seriously dont know where this baby will go. Jeff and I think I will have a little basketball. That would be awesome. Only time will tell. Anyways.. my next appt is Tuesday, July 22nd. I dont think we will get another u/s since we've already had 3. So it will probably be just blood work. Well that's all I have for now.

Once again

Once again... I think I am not pregnant. At least I think my symptoms are fading away seriously. Jeff and I ordered a heart doppler yesterday and I cant wait for it to get here. I thought about calling my dr. but I keep saying to myself... if its going to happen, its going to happen. There is nothing I can do to change what God has planned. Of course, I dont know if I could handle another miscarriage. I've thought about it and I dont think I would want to try again. Too heart breaking. But I will keep praying that we have a healthy baby. I might say I wish it was a boy or a girl from time to time and I have to have the baby in February for sure but when it comes down to it, we just want a baby, a healthy one. I dont think that too much to ask. Is it? Another reason why I dont think I am pregnant is because of my picture we took for 10 weeks. I dont think I look any bigger... maybe the same but not bigger. If you look at my 1st pregnancy photos, you can see my belly not changing from weeks 7 to 8. Jeff and I just started last week taking photos of my belly. I guess this is the reason why I didnt want to but a friend of my mine said I should. I know I should.. but my last pregnancy took the joy out of this one.
On top of all this... our house wont sell for the life of us. We have showings after showings and Jeff and I put our house in the paper under LEASE TO OWN and we only had two calls about it. I thought our phone would be ringing at least a couple of times through out the week. BUT NO!!! We even placed a St. Joesph at the house and said a prayer to help sell the house. I am so sad because two houses down from us, they put there house on the market a couple of weeks ago. This weekend it says "SALE PENDING". I looked at Jeff and said I guess our house is not pretty enough.
I go back and forth about what if's. Should we have bought this new house? But then again, whats wrong with getting a better layout,a better yard at an AWESOME price?

Jeff and I always try to do everything right. We always try to stay on our budget and invest when we can, we dont buy things we dont need, we always take care of the things we have and we are greatful. We work hard for what we have. We earned it. But when will Jeff and I get a break? We try to be responsible and yet we never fall on our feet flat. There are so many people out there that are not responsible and then there is always someone there to save them. How is this fair? We work hard and try hard and yet we get nothing. Those people never learn from their mistakes but yet money is at their door handed on a sliver platter. I know we are better people at the end of the day but all we want is our house to be sold and have a healthy baby. Am I asking too much God?

My Belly at 9 weeks

8 weeks

6 weeks