28 weeks

So lamaze class was good!! I got a hand, foot and back massage. Poor Jeff!! It felt SO good!! Class was good!! I knew alot of it except relaxation techniques. I am not so scared anymore. At least for right now. I am actually ready for her to come out. So I mentioned in my last post that I was having back pains and stomach pains for awhile now. Well I had my 28 week appt on Tuesday. I mentioned this pain to my dr. So she said lets get a galbladder ultrasound. So Wednesday since I was getting my Rhogam shot at Christ, might as well schedule the ultrasound. A little history about my family: My mom, aunt and grandma have had their galbadders taken out. My mom was really sick when she was pregnant with me. She had stones in her galbadder. So.. knowing this.. dr and I are worried. When I was getting the ultrasound we saw her foot near my galbadder and she kept kicking the tech. Cute huh? I told the tech that she would be punished when she is out for doing so. She laughed. So anyways, we didnt see anything in there really but of course you have to wait for the dr to review the results. They also scanned my kidneys, lungs, and liver. So if everything comes back okay... its her! She is killing me. I am seriously asking the dr when can I get induced. I'm in pain bending over, standing, and sitting (worse of all). If I am not laying down, it hurts. If you touch my belly, its a raw feeling. It hurts just rubbin my belly on the right side. I am so sore or bruised from her... or whatever this may be. Otherwise... everything is good with my health. BP was good. Weight gain was... same as last month. Basically its alot!! I really dont eat that bad compared to some other girls. I think its water retention. I really dont drink enough water. I promised myself .. to start drinking more water. Its really hard when your not thirsty. Oh well

Its been awhile

So much to say.. so little time!! Sorry I havent blogged much! We've been busy with getting Bella's room done along with everything else. Jeff and I have my Lamaze (sp?) Class tomorrow. We decided to do it in one-day because its a 30-45 min drive to the hospital. Plus classes were from 6:30pm-8:30. Traffic would be horrible at that time. So thats why we are taking this class in one day. We also have another class: Save a Baby in January. I only have 12 weeks left which is scary to me. I am so NOT ready to give birth. I am not scared about being a parent or the labor part. I am just scared that something will happen to me. I almost have panic attacks over this. I am also afraid of having panic attacks while in labor. I hate when I am not in control. My body has knots all over and even the massage I got a couple of weeks ago didnt relax me. My only complains I have being pregnant is that she pushes on nerve in my stomach so a part of my stomach goes numb. Its like when you lay on your hand for too long. I also get these back cramps everyday. I have knots in my back and it hurts so bad sometimes that I really want to cry. Otherwise, I would be just fine. Along with me being scared of labor, I keep wondering if she is healthy. I also wonder if she will really be here. I cant picture her here with us. I know a part of this is because of my miscarriage. Like I said in the previous post.. it still effects me. The only thing I bought her was the 4 little outfits the day I found out she was a girl. Oh and her furniture. My baby shower is on the 23rd of November. I want to say make sure I have receipts. I'm excited but dread doing her room. In my mind, I could still lose her. It sucks!!! I hate thinking these things. I wish I could be positive. When we talk about plans for the future, I always say in my mind, lets just wait and see. Wait and see if she is here. It sad!!
Along with all this crap on my mind, I have drama in my family. Basically to make it short and sweet, my mother in law doesnt have the time to help plan my baby shower. And when she does, its waiting til the last minute. She doesnt want to help us out for one night with the dogs while I am in labor with her grandchild because she needs to snuggle with Jeff's dad. Its sad! Its makes me wonder..... can I (we) count on her for anything?? This is really important to me and I sit here and feel like we arent important. She has ruined it for me. This is not what I had envision. Now, I dont want her there at the hospital. Ha.. I dont even know if she would of came. Now, I dont want to her to help with the baby shower. Come as a guest! I am just sad because this is our first baby to make it and its my baby shower. When I look back, it wont be a happy time for me. I guess nothing in life is perfect.