8 - 9 Weeks

We had another dr's appt on Tuesday which made me 8 weeks and 2 days. I have been so sick with food. I havent thrown up but I wonder if that would be better. The dr. gave me some other prenatal vitamins and she said it would help with being sick. So far so good.
At our 8 weeks appointment, all we did was an ultrasound. We saw the arms/hands sticking out and the legs. It was pretty cool. Baby's heartbeat looked great and he's is growing at the right speed. Weird thing though, with our 1st pregnancy, our 8 weeks ultrasound does NOT look the same. What scares me the most is that the nurse practitioner should have looked at the baby and noticed that the baby looked like 6/7 weeks instead of 8 weeks. Makes me wonder about her judgment. Should I trust her??? I know she has been in the business for a long long time and has 4 children on her own as well, but I just wonder.. what was she thinking that day. I dont know if it would of be better if she said oh I am sorry, your baby isnt going to make it. Whats done is done but next time I do see her... I will ask... why didnt you notice, why didnt you say anything if you did notice? I dont know.. maybe I shouldnt say anything.

So with this pregnancy, its different. I am getting sick, my belly is alot bigger and I have lot more symptoms. Did I tell you, I think its a boy??? I believe it was a girl the first one and now I think its a boy. I guess we will see if mama's instinct is right. Though right now.. I am thinking I am not pregnant anymore. My boobs dont hurt that much, I haven't pee'd in the middle of the night the past couple of days. I havent been sick or that tired. I usually take a nap ASAP when I get home. I normally cant function without one. Well last night I stayed up til like 10pm without a nap. Of course, Jeff is telling me .... you are still pregnant. I mention earlier that I've been taking new prenatal vitamins to make me feel better... and I have... So if I really want to make sure I am still pregnant, I need to take the other prenatal vitamins.. and then I will be sick again. Yet I DONT want to be sick. And it will make me feel even more tired than I am. What if I'm not pregnant anymore??? My next dr's appt is in 4 weeks, July 22nd. So I am stuck with paying attention to my symptoms for the next 4 weeks. Jeff and I are going to buy doppler soon. They say at 10 weeks you might be able to hear the heartbeat. I cant wait. This is mainly for me, to help me stop worrying. I actually havent been worrying to much because I've been so sick and thats a good sign. Until now.....

Updates

I am sorry for not posting. Since I have been pregnant, I really couldnt blog about my day. Really the only thing I could still say about my miscarriage is that since I've been pregnant, its alot easier dealing with babies and pregnant women.

So on June 12th, we went in and had blood work done, and an ultrasound for 6 weeks. We could see the heart beat and the baby measured on time. So everything looked great. We were told to come back in 2 weeks which would make me 8 weeks. We have a 6 week ultrasound picture but the scanner isnt scanning it correctly. Will try later.

Okay.. we are expecting

Okay.... We are pregnant again. I got my BFP on May 23rd. I took another test on that following Sunday or Monday morning. The only reason I tested was because I was having cramps on my right side and it reminded me when I was pregnant the first time. Jeff and I werent trying. We were going to wait a month.. only because I wanted to lose the weight I gained from my first pregnancy. Oh well. I guess God wanted us to be pregnant again. =) I am so excited yet so nervous at the same time. I try to go on about my day not thinking about it. I dont want to get our hopes up and then lose another baby. And if I do... I know I will be even more pissed off. I am not sure if I would want to try again. But hopefully this time will stick. As for my pregnancy, dr's are going keep an eye on me. I called first thing on Tuesday morning to let them know that I was pregnant again. I went in for blood work that day.
Test results were: Betas 392
Progesterone: 38.2
I went in again on the that following Thursday for blood work.
Test results were: Betas 1200
The dr was pleased with the results. So she said we could come in on June 6th for U/S for Jeff and I decided to wait. We are already going in early. We have a 6 week appointment on June 12th. I figured I could wait but I dont think I can. I am going out of my mind. I am always checking my symptoms to make sure I am still pregnant.
Always checking when I go to the bathroom for blood. Having a miscarriage definitely takes away from the excitement of a new pregnancy. I dont know how offen the drs will have me come in. They consider me high risk yet at the same time, I am not. It doesn't make sense. I know.. I dont understand it either. The dr mentioned me coming in every week if I wanted to hear the heart beat. But since its a long drive, Jeff and I are going to buy one of those dopplers so we can hear the heartbeat every week at home.
So ... only symptoms I have are that I am tired, thirsty and I have cramps. My boobs arent sore like last time. Hopefully next week, they should start hurting. Otherwise, I am feeling great. Oh, on Sunday I was nauseous all day but thats it for sickness!! Of course I would rather be sick than have another miscarriage.